clarifying

Just in case it wasn't clear - there was no announcement about me for sure having another baby in this post. Dan wants one but I am undecided as of yet. Losing weight will have a little to do with it but the rest will be me trying to figure out if I am capable of being a mom of 5 kids. I'm not sure I'll be able to be nice enough, have enough time for everyone and everything I need to do, or stay sane enough.

A funny story that may or may not mean something: Last summer when we got our family pictures taken I got out of the car and said to myself, "who's missing?" I looked around and everyone was there. We all walked out to the field and I heard Dan say, "we're missing someone, everyone isn't here." He looked around and everyone was there. Then we both kind of said, "oh no." Since then neither one of us has felt like we're missing someone. And maybe it doesn't mean anything, who really knows. I'm not going to base my decision on that but I really don't know how I'll know what I am capable of handling. I will be doing a lot of praying :)